Long stretches

It has been too long since I have written. I am still participating.
The days seem to have a huge question mark looming over them. Is this for me? Can I do this? Can I keep going on?
The answer is in the pudding as they say. I have been doing it. Self doubt is so much stronger than any other.
I wait on the edge of anticipation, to hear from University of West Florida. Will they accept me into the international studies student? I don't know, I won't for sure until the end of the semester I am sure. I have no idea what this will mean for me. My nerves seem to be tied, or held to a fire. Not knowing if I can join the program that holds my heart is making me crazy. But I must wait.
In other news, do not eat chunky chili before your absurd run up and down the hills of the golf course. It will make you doubt your dedication with each step. I believe from now on I will only eat cereal for dinner.